you wont find me, where you left me yesterday

You won’t find me, where you left me yesterday

It does matter where, or how much do you care
You may have turned just for a moment away
But sorry dear don’t ask me to stay

Don't look for me at places old

you won’t find me there again

You take off your eyes and I would move away
Find me if you can...but not where you left me yesterday

So baby if you love me don’t take off your eyes
Hold me tight and hold me as long as you can
Bask in my warmth and hold me in your breath
Let not my fragrance fade away

If you forever not let the night fall
Not let the new day make its call
Forever live in this moment that’s today
Hey that’s the only way that you can make me stay
For you won’t find me where you left me yesterday

reflections

There was a time when my heart was pure

My words were for no one but for me to endure
Reflections of an introverted philosophic mind
Scribbled away in back of some notes for no one to find

And today I struggle even with this honest confession
I want even these words to live up to my reputation
‘The poet philosopher’ ‘the all Seeing Eye’
Entrapped in these egos I ve let my soul die

Oh bravo I have made even this rhyme
Yet I know in hearts of heart that I am committing a crime
I am feeding my ego on essence of my soul
Sad I ve ended up as such an asshole

few more drops

My fingers when they move to type
Realize the emptiness that I engulf
Ah yet they are silently aware time is just ripe,
To add to the countless ocean of words few more drops
To mean nothing perhaps
But just to voice my inner strife

Long it has been since I have written anything of meaning
To me or to anyone alive
Yet I need to let go what is held deep within
The fire that burns me slow
Does that rhyme I dunn know
I just know that it time to let go

The Tamer

She dances with the beast, fearless unfazed
Seems so free in his beastly embrace
In an Uncanny ease her body Laze
Yet she knows with what she plays

Subtly aware that the beast may pounce
And on her flesh he may feast
Yet no fear her face announce
Seems as a submissive prey for the beast

But she has faith her spirit so strong
She knows well that she can’t be wronged
It is to her that the beast belongs
And what is it that the he really long

Beast, his spirit of wilderness
Enamoured n enslaved by her tenderness
Not even a hair of hers he would harm
So smitten he is by her charms

There is no cage no chain that binds
He is free to flee wherever he likes
He knows, she won’t call or run behind
But he finds it hard to lose her sight

His world has shrunk to her premise
Her love has tamed all his vice
With tender reigns of love now she plays
Quite willing the beast follows her way

Dont share...Just bare with me

The poem is a reply to a poem by an another author...http://www.reasonforliberty.com/poetry/share-with-me.html

Don’t betray my 'fire' on the name of reason
For she is a bloom of different season
Though thou have won and my voice slowly subside
Let me keep my passion... my fire alive

What poisons thee is my elixir of life
An unmatched joy abound and rife
But for me this pain thou has to endow
For only dead walks without a shadow...

We are nothing but opposites of a coin
Can never arrive at the same point
What I can see is blinded to thee
So don’t share ....just bare with me

songs of silence

How sad the fate of my songs
Deaf is the one to whom it belongs
What is said witheres into unsaid
For not a word is ever read
Alas such is the fate of my utterance
My songs are simply synonyms of silence

Healing Notes

Ah you for sure can count your worth in gold
More precious than the entire world
Yet you now mean nothing to me
For now... you simply do not belong to me
Does it matter how long was the song
It’s just moments that we carry along
Whilst you were mine I cherished thee
From my memories, you can never flee
There were moments when you were mine
Intimate ecstatic and divine
That is all that I intend to treasure
And what is left of thee I need not measure

shaayari

Tumne bulaya hi nahin ki hum sun nahin paaye...

yeh jindagi guzar jayegi is khayaal mein...

Dil jab bhi roya tujhe yaad karke

Tassali di humne phir tujhe yaad karke

Teri ek aawaaz ko hain itna takrse

Ki sannate gunjte hain aur mehfilen khaamosh hain

Kissi panne ke kinare likhe mere lawz, kamzeen honge 

Dega koi awaz unko ek din, yakin hai much wo ek din sangeen honge 

Uska chera  is kadar aaknkon pe chaya tha 

Hum aaine mein Apna chehara dekna bhool gaye

 

Humne ek aasmani pari se muhobbat ki

Zameeen pe khade hain, yeh magar bhool gaye 

Dil toota hai, isme unki koi galti natin 

Hume tabiat se uchaala tha dil, woh pakdna bhool gaye 

Agar me ek nazm bhi like doon tera chera deka kar 

Mein meri muhobbat ko mukkamil samjhoonga

 

Waqt sab kha jayega, ek waqt aayega jab tera chehra dhoondla jayega

Magar jab hi yeh lawz hont pe aayega tu yaad aayega... tu yaad aayega

Reality

Each morning when I wake up and see
You there not besides me
My heart shudders and lunges in disbelief
Overwhelmed by that sudden grief
The scent of yours... the warmth I feel
Is nothing more than a dream surreal
Light that now fills my empty room
Sinks into me as reality gloom...
Here comes another day without you
Bland, colourless without a hue

To the fading love

I waited for thee an eternity
Building intricate castles of dream
Hoping that you would come
Turn it all into reality

There was no reason to hold on
No logic fine or sign divine
I waited for thee when all carried on
All but hopes and dreams sublime

So much thee I desired
It burned me like wild fire
Waited so long yet never tired
All the pain I endured with smile

Thou left me to slowly wither
Watch me fade in longing despair
Let my dreams shatter dither
Their carcasses turn into nightmare

My soul hath turned into ash ‘Fire’
Essence withers from the soil gross
What is left is devoid of desires
‘The all seeing eye’ embedded on a corpse

Poetry of Pain

Not let that pain come forth
From beneath the smile that subtle remorse
Not let surface the tears restrained
For so long what in heart contained

Brew so potent can’t let it seep
Burn within but not weep
Some feelings are better untold
Preserved forever in a hold

For what flows changes form
With time slowly transform
What worth is love if essence lost?
Pain will fade but at what cost

Pain it is but what defines
Coarse existence essence fine
So let it forever bury deep
Something that you forever keep

Lost Love

My flame is flickering bright
Alas the time has come
It will soon die down bury deep
Not as lost but never found

I searched for it all around
Love that I never found
Whispers that went unheard, tears unseen
No heir to whom it belong

I know that it’s not love lost but love never found
It’s a dream that never had any ground
Yet I’ve harboured it so long and fed it my soul, should
A part of me die my heart would

Soon a day will come
When the thoughts won’t flow and words won’t rhyme
My heart would utter no more chimes
No remorse no moist eyes
Stone perhaps yet alive

Can’t bare this pain, for a moment weep
Tied I am now I’ve promises to keep
Life beacons I’ve to go along
Something needs to die for something to live on

Just remember that
Love can’t be compromised but compromises can be loved
Not loved perhaps but can be lived
And that three plain words spoken
Can hold more meaning than any poetry written

So let it die let it bury deep
Let some desires forever sleep
Some prayers are better unfulfilled
Immortal they are once they are killed

IF WORDS COULD CARRY

Tears and smiles the language of heart
If words could ever play their part
How a drop of tear hold an ocean of pain
If even a million words could ever explain

If words could carry the pain of heart
All you feel could be written apart
Pain that keep eyes moistened so long
If in words it could be shown

To tell how much it hurts your heart
When all you care falls apart
How memories you cherished can make you cry
And all your love for once be tried

How much it pains in a broken heart
How it feels when loved ones part
When all your love turns into pain
And every breath starts to strain

If you could weave a song of pain
And if in words your feelings be contained
If you could add your tears into ink
Just in a drop whole world would sink

Salma Hayek

God for sure made the rest in haste
For in thou he laid the divine grace
Beauty galore no one can measure
Only heart of a lover can treasure

Vibrant thou look no canvas can fake
Not even thy shadow can one make
No sculpture can do thy beauty justice
Matching thy beauty words don’t exist

Had thou been eternally there
Though my heart pains to share
Thy grace would have shone on Lisa’s face
And in countless words of Shakespeare’s plays

I pray thy beauty forever stays
In the dust of time it never fades
Let men forever praise
Serve justice to thy boundless grace

DILEMMA OF GOD

Preface The poem has a strong christian inclination...It was writtem way back in my school days that is some 11 odd years back . The poem does not reflect my faith or my present beliefs.

Spirit is willing but flesh is weak
Damned by desires its only pleasure that it seeks
Spirit searches for Devine caring no gain
But all goes in vain as flesh succumbs to pain

Efforts of Devine is now at stake
Centuries of evolution seems a waste
As men fail again and again
Spirits of heaven cries in pain

Flesh was moulded against all odd
Sculpted with beauty to resemble God
God was so happy for his creation
Uttered ‘son’ out of jubilation

God wanted his son to be an image of his own
Thus into flesh spirit was sown
He expected his son to grow up fine
Spirit within the flesh to seek the Devine

If man fails who is at blame
Either spirit or God will claim
For flesh was not meant for this quest
Yet it was spirit to make up the rest

God was too ambitious in his dreams
But he trusted spirit to that extreme
It was for the spirit to do its duty
To purify flesh to match its beauty

Now it’s for the sculptor to break the sculpture
To remove life from the womb of nature
Destroy his creation by own hands
And turn flesh back to sand

That day even god will cry
For a fathers love for his son be tried
The day when will of the spirit will be broken
And from his sweetest dream god will be woken

Shaayari

Mausam tumhare shehar ka itna bhi sard na hoga
Aanch mere muhobbat ka tumhe mehsoos jaroor hoga
Ruswah bhale hi kar do tum meri muhobbat ko
Tere dil ke kisi kone mein yeh aabad jaroor hoga

Yon to baharon ke mausam kai baar hote hain
dil lagaane ko aashik hazaar hote hain
Mausam guzar jaate hain aashiq choot jaate hain
Muhobbat mein log ruswah kai baar hote hain

Diwanon se yon aankhen milane ki khata na kije
Unpe yon muskuraane ki khata na kije
Aankhon mein inke sailaab hote hain
Unme yon utar jaane ki khata na kije

Kuch dard beh jaate hain aankhon se
kuch palkon mein choot jaate hain
Log dil to tod jaate hain lekin
Yaaden chod jaaten hain

Khayalon ko kisi aahat ki aas rehti hai
nigaahon ko kisi surat ki pyaas rehti hai
Aaj jinda hain yeh bhi hai unki innayat
Unke aane ke ummeed pe yeh saans rehti hai

Gam aisa de gayi ho ki ab muskura na payenge
Phir dobaara chahaton ki rasmen nibha na paayenge
Muhobbat lagne lagi hai ab koi khata hamen
Yeh dil dobaara ab kahin hum lagaa na payenge

Jo pyaar na de sako to kuch sapne udhaar de do
Yeh jindagi jeene ki vajah yaar de do
Kat jaayegi yeh jindagi tere yaadon ke sahaare
Jo de sako to kuch lamhe udhaar de do

Unke bin jeene ke khayaal se darte hain
Kisi mod par unse bichadne ke sawaal se darte hain
Sochta hoon jindagi bhar ka saath maang loon
Par jaane kyon hum unke jawwab se darte hain

Tere bina hum jee to rahe hain
Gum ke aasoon pee to rahe hain
Mushkil hai jakhmon ka yon bharna
Jakhmon ko hum see to rahe hain

Seene main apne dard leke jeeten hain
Tere muhobbat ka marz leke jeete hain
Dil dhadakta hai mera bas tere naam se
Yeh saasen bhi ab tujse kaarzleke jeete hain

yon to muddat-e muhobbat jindagi se kam hoti hai
jindagi aksar gamon se tang hotin hain
yon to kaafi hai jindagi mein ek lamha muhobbat ka
muhobbat ke liye sau jindagi bhi kam hoti hain

Zindagi mein kuch aise bhi mod aate hain
Gujre hur daur sab yaad aate hain
Barson ke duruion ke baad bhi
Hum tujhe paas khada paate hain

dil ke is marz ko hum kya naam dein
deewangi kahen ya nadaangi karaar dein
tadap jaata hai yeh dil tere ek jikhr pe ek baat pe
ise muhobbat kahen ya tera naam dein

Ho jindagi lakeeron mein likhi to har lakeer pe tum milo
Ho takdeer kaisi bhi har tasveer mein tum milo
Mile har saans ko mere suhhobat tumhara
Jindagi na sahi to maut banke tum milo.

Ho tumhi se ye duniya,tumhi se sama ho
tere julfon ki ho chaanv aanchal aashiyyan ho
simat jaaye yeh duniya palkon mein tere
tere sason se fizayen aur aakhon mein jahaan ho.

jasbaaton ka kavi hoon dil se yaar likhta hoon
gunjte hain jo saaz dil mein bas wahi raag likta hoon
nashe mein muhobbat aur hosh mein dard yaar likhta hoon
jo bhi likta hoon kuch teri tasveer kuch meri taqdeer yaar likhta hoon.

who ishq hi kya jo ashkon mein beh jaaye
dard jiska waqt marham ban jaaye
ho jiski na sason ko jarroorat
who ishq hi kya jo jindagi na ban jaaye

jo tere saath baithen to baten khatam na hon
akhon mein utar jayen to raten khatam na hon
tham jaaye yeh duniya ek hassin pe tumhare
mil jaye jo tera saath to kabhi sasen khatam na hon
/dil ke tehkhane mein kabhi teri yaden khattam na hon

Umr bhar rahega hamen tujhe khone ka gum
Ankhon mein rahegi kuch nami hurdum
Jeete hain leke dil mein ek tasveer tumhaari
Jo gaar mit gayi teri tasveer to mit jaayenge hum

Baithen hain samete dard kitna par bayaan nahin hota
Rehti hain aankhen nam har waqt par zaayar nahin hota
Kya kahen ki jalte hain ishq mein har waqt lekin …….
Dhuan nahin hota

Saahil pe ghar na banaao………..
lehron mein ghul jaayenge
Aankhon mein khwaab na sajaao………
Ashkon mein dhul jaayenge

Kitne khwaab dekhe kitne toot gage
Haaton mein aake jugnoo jaane kitne choot gaye
Bade shauk se piroya tha khwabon ka tana bana
Waqt ke haton jaane dhaage kitne toot gaye
…Jindagi ke safar mein saathi kitne chooth gaye

Hai Magar yeh bhi sach
…ki toothte hain khwaab lekin mithte nahin
waqt ke dhool tale bas woh dikhte nahin
Reh jaate kuch yaad banke kuch fariaad banke
…kuch ashk banke kuch aks banke
Mith jaata hai aadmi lekin… khwaab mithte nahin

Hamen ab dard ki chaahat ho chali hai
Muhobbat mein roz jalne ki aadat ho chali hai
Ashkon ke bin ab anjaan lagti hain aankhen
Unki berukhi ab jaroorat ho chali hai….

Tera dard ab jaroorat ho chala hai
Dard dil ka ab sakoon ho chala hai
Bhulayen tumhen ya khud ko mita den
Tu hi jism aur tu hi rooh ho chala hai

Dekhta hoon jidhar bhi dikhta hai bas tu
Milta hoon jisise milta hai bas tu
Kisko dekhoon aur kis se miloon ab
Yeh jahaan ab tera aks, tera aayina ho chala hai

Gehren hai nishaan dil pe
Waqt ke haaton yeh mitenge nahin
Dafn kar do... jala do hamen
Tu hi ab mera vajood ho chala hai
Tuhi shaksiyat tu hi milkiyat
Tu hi raasta... tu hi manzil ho chala hai
Baithun kidhar ko ab karne ko sajda
Tu hi ab mera khuda ho chala hai

Jo hum roye bhi to jamana has pada

…kaha kya andaaze bayaan... kya hunr he tera

Paagal ho gaye ho aisa jaan padta hai
Uljhe hue jasbaat sab shayaran sa lagta hjai

Kya karen shikwa ki mar mita yeh dil kisi shamma-e-noor pe
Dhadkta jo ek umr bhi to itna baghbaan na hota

Likne chale the shaayari jindagi likh gayi
Jaane kab kalam ki siyahi aansoo chakh gayi/askon mein ghul gayi

Silence

Shallow I am yet skimming
Surface no depth brimming
Words not really matter
Silence spilled over scattered

Music pure subtle clear
Only a heart can heart hear
Quiet pain words too loud
Silence stream subtle gush

Feelings pour lips conceal
Heart heavy sinking not spill
Tearing deep within
Silence sword slowly slit

Eyes sad tears missing
Held up deep brewing
Fire contained not seen
Silence smouldering slowly devour

The girl with almond eyes

The girl with almond eyes
Saddened moist some pain withheld
In the crowd but so alone
To infinity she stare

Her beauty divine sublime
Striking Youth in its prime
In A sight captured enslaved
I stand lost mesmerised

She left a mark profound
Her Memory never fades
Close my eyes a moment
Stands right where I found

A thousand words

Were said ...unsaid
moment our eyes met
The very next, she left
yet she stayed with me forever 

Lost Soldier

Theme
It is meant to express the pain that a soldier undergoes when illusions falls apart.
Write about honour and its changing values
How fellow men vie soldiers now
Lack of purpose and the lost cause
The respect that has withered
Love that is lost
...............................................................
My mettle hath lost its sheen
That stint of esteem no more seen
Patriotism sacrifice all essence lost
I just trade my life for a cost

My countrymen no more with awe admire
Slowly grows within dissent, a silent ire
For many I fleece their hard earned money,
Gobble up taxes burden the economy

No maid fair care to caress
Brazen heart has lost its duress
For whom I fight and for whom I die
Care not ask for a moment why

Is that I who stares from the mirror?
Blood smeared torn withered
Alas Flesh has survived but soul is lost
The very reason for what I fought

Convulsions of a poetic mind
Random unsteady flight of a butterfly
Its music like a wind chime
No matter which way the wind blows, it simply rhymes

Dooriaan

Kuch Samundar beech mein hai ..kuch Jamana beech main
Phir bhi hai kuch fasana tere mere beech main
Hai aankhon mein tasweer teri aur fizaon mein teri mehak
Chaand mein hai aks tera aur chandini mein teri chamak
Doorian ab kya gine hum tere mere beech mein

Hai magar yeh sach ki hain nahin hum rubaru
Jo hote gar tum saath to hoti kuch to guftagu
Do dilon ke darmiyan hoti kuch to justaju…
Milte saanson se mere, tere saaans to, hote saaz kuch aur hi
In lamhon main kaid hote ehsas kuch aur hi
Nazdeekiyan ab kya gine hum tere mere beech mein

I Long...

Oh how I long to kiss thy lips
Sweet honey from the flowers drips
Feel heaven in the mortal being
Moist warmth of the monsoon winds

Into thy eyes pray I sink
Ocean deep with no brink
Be adrift and know no time
Always drunk in thou beauty wine

So I long to touch thy face
Moist with love like morning haze
No feather as soft no snow as fair
Oh God made thou with so much care

But what I care is to touch thy heart
Warm abode where goodness start
There is love in every beat
Oh thou are a fountain of love so sweet

Last Words

Heavy strained passeth breath
Sinking veins flesh blue numb
Slow closeth shadow death
Can run no more it’s the final fall

Each breath leaves like autumn leaves
Fading failing falling aside
Flows out life like falling tide
Can hold no more it’s the final call

On to the body winter hath arrived
Yet in heart spring hath survived
Still feels warmth of thy breath
Defiant I smile onto death

To relentless death I say…

Rejoice not that thou have won
Claim the flesh thy bounty one
My heart to thou not it belong
Some one else for whom it long

And to thee I say…

Repent not all is lost
Body besieged heart no never
In thy memories sweet abode
I shall live for ever n ever

On love

I wondered how it would sound
Poetry that sprouts from love
I know what grows on parched grounds
Not seen though much of green meadows
Never known that subtle sting, that slow smoulder
How it feels…to breathe the fragrance in air stale
See colours beyond the spectrum pale
How does it feel… to feed on the feelings gay
Hear the incessant music that nature play
I now know how it feels…feels to be in love

Enigma

Gone too far thou no silhouette seen
Beyond horizons of my dreams
Eyes tired strained searching
Chasing thou mirage lurching

Spring bloom thou my pastures scorched
Soul withered all essence lost
Can’t hold for long thy nectar frost
Fluid thou seep my soil gross

Enigma thou never unveil
Memory fails thy shadow frail
No smile or thy smell sweet
No hope to hold on, no home to retreat

Thought I’ve groundings firm
Anchored I wait thou to come
Never realized time tide so strong
Like a log I drifted along

Too far thou have gone
Limbs tired, eyes sullen
My body no more strong
I won’t stop for I can’t
Alas my love, my life, I can’t travel this long